Tuesday, July 2, 2013

6 Week Bumpdate

So, I got my first ultrasound at 5w6d and it dated perfectly. The next day began my 6th week of pregnancy. I honestly didn't even really feel that pregnant. I mean, I could "feel" that there was a little bean inside of me but physically I just felt normal. I took pictures, but the dress was a little too sheer! Oops! So I don't think I'll be sharing those without some retouching. You can only see my hip and a bit of my buttcheek from the side, but it's enough to bother me. Thank Gods for Photoshop!

 Then at 6w3d nausea hit. At first just a few small waves but by the afternoon it was a glaringly constant feeling like I was going to vomit my brains out any second, but every second. I also felt so tired that day, and ended up sleeping 11 hours which is unusual for me. When I woke up the next day, my belly was definitely bloated (although I don't feel bloated at all!) and poking out. As soon as I woke up the nausea began again, and hasn't gone away since. I'm still really tired, every day. I have no energy physically but mentally I feel like I'm nesting...there's so much I want to do. Which is weird because with Maire's pregnancy I never felt the urge to nest at all. I'm just so excited, I can't wait to see what tomorrow, the beginning of week 7, will bring.

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

6 Weeks

For about the past week I've felt super nauseous, tired, moody, and super bitchy. I haven't been puking or sick, but I may as well be. I've also been super hot at times, radiating heat! I took a pregnancy test on Father's Day, and it was positive. But because of the cyst I didn't think anything of it, it brings pregnancy symptoms with it. As time progressed, so did my symptoms. Finally today we went and had an ultrasound done to see if we could confirm pregnancy or cyst. I honestly have been biting my fingers and pacing and moody trying to figure out if I was imagining things. The cyst really has played with my mind. I couldn't stand not knowing.

Finally, we know. Little Foot is due February 18, 2014. There was a gestational sac, yolk, and it measured perfectly with my last period (and I mean perfectly). No fetal pole was visible, but we go back the day after my birthday to confirm growth or determine if I have a blighted ovum.

I'm trying to just be happy about it and not let the what-ifs plague my mind with doubt after all we've gone through in the past couple of months. I am so excited and want to do something motherly and pregnancy related. I just don't know what yet. I guess it just doesn't feel completely real yet. I want it to be so bad! I'm happy, but I don't think my mind will be at ease until the next ultrasound.

I want to tell the world, but I don't feel right telling more than close friends (and the readers of this blog) until my next ultrasound. I don't like explaining things, and I don't want to have to explain to every person I tell that I've miscarried (again.) I, in fact, didn't tell people about my last two pregnancies for that same reason...miscarriage, which happened in both cases. I really don't need to deal with ignorant or hurtful comments during sensitive times. So I think I'll wait.

I also feel like a FTM kind of again. I feel strange about it, like clueless all over again. I totally need to refresh myself. Plus, the first time around I went with what I just thought was "basics" for my daughter, which was really more than necessary in my opinion. I'm just wondering what I'll actually need this time around. My daughter hardly ever used her swing, so I don't think it will be good idea to get one ahead of time with this pregnancy. I will see if the new baby actually might need one first. Definitely cloth diapering again. Breastfeeding again for sure! Cosleeping again! Which reminds me, I'm going to have about 8 months to full transition Maire to sleeping on her own. lately she sleeps on her own most nights, but there are occasional nights she comes to bed with me. With a newborn co-sleeping that just won't be possible. Our bed isn't big enough for my husband, me, Maire, and the newbie. I mean, we could get a cosleeper if we absolutely needed to, but they are so easily outgrown that it won't solve the problem. Clothes, that's another thing. With Maire I have boxes and boxes of clothes! Boxes!! If it's another girl, we'd be set. But we're not finding out so we'll have to get gender neutral stuff anyways just in case. Another carseat I'm not worried about, and yet I am. Our '99 Jeep GC is tiny in the back for car seats + a person (and with three adults that often go places together, it would be a squeeze). I normally sit in the back anyways, but man will it be a pain getting in and out. I don't think the newborn's carseat will be able to be in the middle, so that will be a huge issue. We will just have to see. I know it's "tons of time" to think about these things...but it's really not and before I know it we will be 30 weeks pregnant. I'm so excited, I have so much on my mind.